my heart hurts

i would take the ice-cream… but i am afraid. i treasure the little moments when i feel when we are two little children. But we are not. my heart hurts…

the one that refuses to fade

now i know…a crush is a crush. feelings are feelings, no matter the age. and it is all me… because our eyes nvr met…and yet i still see him everywhere…

i miss you again and again

u are drifting away and i am afraid. are u surrounded by friends, by residents and peers whose hearts are true? i hv more friends now…but the one that i want is you. i still look out for you. how is that we are so close and still so far away. how is that i hv so many things to ask u…yet i could ask you nothing…will you miss me like this? i afraid to ask…although i must hv know the answer. then i know…this the difference when a man loves you or not. 

the waves is strong today… as it beats upon my chest… i am starting not to fear the pain on this chest. my eyes misses yours… just like this. 

dreaming

i dreamt of him… and there will always be him in these brands-Lamy, Crumbler, BMW..NUH. He seems to be everywhere . 

letting go

For the rest of your life,  can you remember me? when it rains, i will remember you… as it had rained my heart so often. i know i cant hold onto you and I shouldn’t. yet at times… i still want to.

be careful

it has been a long while since i write here…because so often words fail me. But today… i just want to say…be careful.